Been a Long time.

Since I posted.
I started to read Shantaram on the journey back home. Before I start with the book, I must tell you that it was 27/11 that day. It took me a while to realize what had happened the previous night. It started with my dad calling me to be careful n alert as I was going to wait for him on the New Delhi railway station. Newspapers followed.

Then Gtalk status messages of people, which read
1."everyone okay? need any help anyone?"
2."f**k those bastards, Its my City!"
3.IIT kgp alumnus was one of them. 2005 archi batch.
etc.

Newspapers were flooded with how the Intelligence took us down. The politicians ruining the country blah blah.. I googled the recruitment procedures of the Indian Intelligence Agencies. It was appalling to find out that ordinary civil servants or university graduates were trained for a while and assigned those extraordinary jobs.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Research_and_Analysis_Wing

Someone gave the link, Mumbai Under Attack

Then someone told about our neighbour's neice who went to the Oberoi under her hotel management training program. She was among the first ones to be shot.
Gradually, the feeling of fear,vulnerability and helplessness creeped in. It no longer felt safe. Anywhere.

While all this was happening, I saw the newspaper headlines changing this way, 'Mumbai Attacked', 'In Flames, And Fighting', 'Heads begin to roll, Patil out', '26/11 could have been stopped', 'Low IQ, Why India Fails', .. 'India Rising'
The last issue launched a 'Citizens Against Terror' initiative where citizens would post their suggestions on what India needs to do to fight terror. (fightingterror@hindustantimes.com)

Its yet to sink in completely. I'm not sure what to do.
'Don't think too much. These things happen and you need to let it go and focus on your life. There's not much you can do about it'
Doesn't work.
I can't let it go.
We can't let it go.